by Malissa Chapin
(Psalm 89:1 ESV).
When my mother passed away last April, I lost my prayer warrior, best friend, and cheerleader. My emotions remain close beneath the surface and I cry often. It’s a normal process, but it’s uncomfortable and exhausting.
I cocooned in my home like most people did in 2020 and I read. Words have always been my friends—words, books, and writing. When I was young, I told my mother I’d write a book before I was 12 and she told me I could do it.
I’m far past twelve and that book never happened. But after her death, I decided to take writing seriously. My mother’s mortality encouraged me to look at my life’s goals and dreams and to go for them. I keep asking myself, “If not now, then when?” I’ve spent the last year writing, learning, and growing in the craft of writing.
At first, I felt I pursued writing for my mother. Then, I believed I wrote to fulfill my dreams. But, now I know my pursuit of writing is my pursuit of God. He put the desire in my soul, and my job is to write to bring him glory.
I have to honor his prompting and share the words he’s given me. It’s not about my mother or my dreams; it’s about him.
Our church sang a new song last year near the time my mother passed that resonated with me about the goodness and faithfulness of God. It moved me to tears each time they sang the arrangement. When I acknowledge God is good and faithful, I admit that he was good and faithful when he took my mother home. He is good and faithful through every part of my life, including taking my dreams and giving me a desire to write—for his glory.
Dear God, you have always been good and faithful in every part of my life. Help me to acknowledge you with the words I speak, sing, and write. Let the message I share always be the one that tells of your steadfast love.
Malissa Chapin lives with her husband, two sons, and a crazy cat in Oshkosh, Wisconsin. She enjoys creating with words, fabric, yarn, and watercolors. She enjoys sharing her faith, reading, collecting vintage treasures, drinking coffee, playing the piano, homeschooling, and looking on the bright side. You can connect at www.malissachapin.com