by Yeny Rowley
As a child, I saw a book on my mom’s nightstand. My eyes widened the day I learned to read its title, How to Become a Writer. I connected it with the author of the book my mom had read to me. But it never crossed my mind I could write a book.
Many years later, my mom encouraged me to pursue writing. The same week, two other people also urged me toward the craft.
With a college degree in a different field, I had doubts. But I began to write —just to write. Acquaintances’ feedback nudged me to join a critique group to polish my translated manuscripts from Spanish to English.
I began to submit pieces to contests where my work won awards. But feelings of inadequacy persisted despite success. Every time I initiated a new project, I questioned my qualifications. Fear convinced me I was not as competent as others perceived.
I learned these symptoms define impostor syndrome. I searched for solutions without avail. Mental attacks coupled with the discomfort from a frozen shoulder suggested God was closing the writing door.
Nonetheless, I continued my morning Bible reading and copying Scriptures. I read the Bible to my children daily. I comforted troubled friends and relatives with texts or emails, using the Scriptures I had copied earlier. Soon, my texts grew into lengthier messages and my messages evolved into devotions. I realized God was not the one closing my writing door.
Matthew 6:33 tells me to seek the I AM. Instead, I sought self-efficacy. When I transferred the focus from my self-doubts to comforting others with written messages, my perspective changed.
Perhaps you can relate. We disqualify ourselves as impostors when we believe the power of man-made labels.
I learned that when we doubt our ability, we are working in our own strength. But when we seek and allow God to flow through us, the weight of self-doubt lifts, and we write in his power.
Father in heaven, forgive us when we house wrong beliefs. Your Word promises us that when we open wide our mouths, you will fill them (Psalm 81:10). Help us to open not only our mouths but our computer files and notebooks in faith, assured that you will fill them through us. And prepare the heart of our audience to receive it. We ask in Jesus’ name, Amen.
Born in Mexico, Yeny Maria Rowley, moved to the U.S.A. over twenty years ago. Her relocation challenges revived her relationship with God and are the impetus for her English-Spanish devotions seeking to bridge immigrants’ generational and cross-cultural gaps. Yeny lives in central Florida with her husband and two children. Contact her at email@example.com