Numbers Versus Wordsmith
by Tina Yeager
“Every animal of the forest is mine,
and the cattle on a thousand hills.
I know every bird in the mountains,
and the insects in the fields are mine …
“Sacrifice thank offerings to God,
fulfill your vows to the Most High,
and call on me in the day of trouble;
I will deliver you, and you will honor me.”
(Psalm 50:10-11,14-15, NIV).
How many follow me on Instagram, Twitter, Pinterest? According to the experts, not enough. And the length of my email list? Uh, let’s not go there. I spent thousands of dollars and weeks of effort preparing a book launch which attracted a handful of participants. Industry insiders tell me the business of writing involves a numbers game.
I seem like the world’s greatest loser.
I knelt on my bedside rug to cry out in angst. My bones crushed against the hard floor as I struggled with my inability to understand. I felt a call to deliver words so why had the pressure to grow numbers intensified? I poured out my frustration and confessed my helplessness, pleading with God to untangle my confusion.
After my venting rose and dissipated, awareness settled in its place. A few encouraging names and faces came to mind. Each one significant enough for Jesus and therefore worthy of my efforts, time, and any expense.
The Holy Spirit then reminded me of his job versus mine. He remains sovereign over the reach of my message. I have the opportunity and privilege of serving him with obedience each day. Weeks of time, unthinkable cost, and ridiculous effort—nothing worth holding back. With all he has invested in my life, I may choose to join his work by offering it as a daily sacrifice.
Lord, you alone number all things in the universe. You hold my dream-fulfilling moments, beads of sweat, and tears. You provide every dollar and count each dime. And you know each person who needs the message you’ve invested in my heart. By name and number of hairs on her head. Thank you for inviting me to participate in your blessings. Please continue to pour your words through me. Keep me obedient and reaching out to touch as many souls as you pre-ordained. Amen.
Award-winning author, speaker, licensed counselor, and life coach, Tina encourages audiences to fulfill their potential. She offers writing workshops through Serious Writer Academy, hosts the Flourish-Meant podcast, and is a mentor with Word Weavers International. Beautiful Warrior, her book on women’s esteem is available on Amazon. To connect with her, visit tinayeager.com.